Any Jehovah's Witness visiting Free Minds today is dealing with a number of disappointment with the Watchtower Bible and Tract Society or getting very frustrated with keeping up with the expectation "Jehovah's Organization" has placed on him or her.

In my case, I had a string of disappointments with the people inside the religion who said that they had real love for each other regardless of the racial, social and national background but still harbor a racist worldview. That discovery was made after I was involved with a Jehovah's Witness girl in 1983 and it was seed that forced me to ask myself whether this was the true religion after my baptism in 1986.

Two major incidents took place and it were these that had me get expulsed out of the Adversary's playground. One was when I met a very lovely woman who was not a Jehovah's Witness but attended college with me. She was a born again believer in Yeshua and treated me with a great deal of affection and respect...something that I could not get from a Jehovah's Witness girl. The second was when one elder made a racist remark to me during the time the judicial committee meeting was convened against my brother for supposedly committing fornication with a woman, and literally I was choking the life of the elder. The two elders were not successful in getting me off of the birth defect. Since I was not going to sit in the iron bar hotel for a cruelty to animal charge I let hold go but hurled him down to carpet inside the Kingdom Hall library. Not only did they leave my brother alone but now my bitterness became very wrathful.

The congregation I attended heard about what I did and an elder approached me about it. Then the gaunlet was made: "I tell you what, Brother M., if you feel that good about yourself or any other elder, I like for you to try me on your best day and fill his shoes. You do not know Jehovah, you will meet Him after I beat you like your parents should have a long time ago."

On February 1994 I had to be before the judicial committee but I had said the exact same thing but I went further to say that Jehovah will never allow to use this pool of bad semen found here to carry out His Will for manknd, and I do not wish to be part of it. They did disfellowshipped me nonetheless but I was so relieved to be free to live out my dreams.

I can say that being a Jehovah's Witness was destroying my personal vision and depleting me of my energy and talents, resulting in carrying an uncommon, buildup bitterness.

Now, I am doing things that I could never do as a Jehovah's Witness: graduating from college, hosting an Internet radio program which allow Witnesses to express their real feelings about problems they are encountering that they cannot take to the elders, or address to the Watchtower Society on Insight on The Word (a pastoral counseling outreach I had founded in 2006) and being in a fusion rock band, Lumination, as vocals/bass guitarist.

This is not for everybody if you want your tomorrow to be better than today, then you must be willing to change your life by changing what you know and who you choose to believe. Remember this Seed of Wisdom: Changes Are Always Proportionate To Your Knowledge.

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